I’m torn Between what love used to be And what love is.
I’m stuck In a world where Expressions come… freely
Frequently Without restrictions.
I’m at a complete… Loss
When it comes to what’s reality
And what’s fantasy
Am I wrong for wanting to FEEL loved?
Is it too much to ask for A simple kiss
A thoughtful gesture Or even an affectionate embrace?
According to you… Its excessive Unnecessary Pointless.
But how can you love…
Yet EXPRESS no love?
It leaves me to question
Am I really What you Want? Desire? Crave?
I’m finding it harder to believe that I am The ONE.
And what I do believe…
Is that my fantasy Is no longer reality
And maybe we Can just no longer Be..
Naikia S. Smith
Something in the way you do,
has me spellbound whenever I’m near you.
I often try to stray away,
but I’m drawn to you more by the things you say.
A simple touch of your hand,
send nerve signals my body fully understands.
I want to enter into your mind.
Even though you cannot BE mine.
You’re like the crystal vase you cannot touch,
and because of that forbiddance, I want you so much.
It’s just something about the things you do,
that has me all into you.
Naikia S. Smith
I lye here thinking of you as my body still quirks from your intense touch.
A smile forms upon my face as I envision the lovemaking we’ve created. I love the way you thrust inside of me as you send my body into an emotional bliss. The feeling hurts so good, I have no choice but to scream out in pleasure. I quiver once again as I impatiently await your return.
Already I miss you. I miss hearing your voice. I even miss your spontaneous actions. There is so much about you that I don’t know, yet I still yearn for you. Something about you is just so mysterious.
You intrigue me,
entice me,
precisely,
beyond the point of no control.
I want you to be in my life, but will I be able to submit myself to you ? Will I be able entrust my heart within your hands? Will you be there for me? Do you believe in destiny? You and I, will we forever be, I as your woman, you as my man, even throughout life’s demands, will you still be able to hold my hand?
My wants,
my needs,
my everything,
can you give them to me?
I’m asking you pleadingly;
take me...
I’m yours.
Naikia S. Smith
My questions are quite simple,
yet strategic in how I ask.
I want to know if a man has what it takes,
to perform this mindful task.
Any man can make love to a woman,
but let me take this to a different extent.
Stimulation is not just created physically,
but mentally it may also be sent.
I’ve seen what a man can do in the bedroom,
now let me show you a different cours
Have you ever tried to stimulate your woman with a little mental intercourse?
Begin the foreplay by getting in touch with her innermost feelings,
and also her fantasies.
Arouse her hemispheres one by one,
to explore new and different possibilities.
Once your utterance has her adrenaline pumping,
indulge her with the hardness of your verbalization.
Make it intriguing to the point,
to where she’ll experience pure, blissful, communication.
As her brain begin to seize from you intellect,
she absorbs all the erotic information.
Quivering from inexperience,
of such great stimulation.
Now she would have experienced such an intense feeling,
it would leave her with no remorse.
Not only has she experienced the joys and pleasures of love making,
but also those of mental intercourse.
Naikia S. Smith
Alone, Lonely,
In despair for someone to love.
Objected, Rejected,
not known or even thought of.
Mistaken, Misunderstood,
in this cruel world of reality.
Angry, Insane,
having no possibilities.
Emotional, Temperamental,
hiding every feeling inside.
Turbulent, Resentful,
taken away from, feeling deprived.
Blind, Obscure,
not being able to actually see.
Ignorant, Insensible,
on how beautiful a love could be.
Naikia S. Smith
So long I have yearned to be with you,
for you to come and steal my heart away.
I wanted you to make my life more meaningful,
within each aspect, in every way.
A simple touch from your hand made me tingle,
your conversation intrigued every corner in my mind.
I felt a strong powerful connection with you,
as if our souls had intertwined.
I began exchanging a piece of me,
in hopes for a piece of you.
Those few moments of pleasure,
became many moments of pain,
when I finally realized the truth.
The truth was I was loving a man,
that I couldn’t even call my own.
He was using me as an escape,
from his unfillfilment at home.
Just when I felt things were headed in the right way,
when I was more than ready for commitment.
The truth came out, love became reality,
and I became a victim of false contentment.
Naikia S Smith
I’m sitting under the dark night sky, gazing into the beautiful array of colors beyond the ocean. I look up further to see the bright beams that’s descending from the moon. I return my gaze upon the horizon and realize how much my heart aches. The beautiful golden endless line reminds me of the love we could have shared. I torture myself by reminiscing on the few good moments we’ve spent together. I find myself laughing, despite the continuous pain in my heart.
The analogy you made about us was so beautiful. You stated that were two tree’s standing side by side wanting so much to be together. Our only contact was above the ground where no one could see us. I wanted to be with you, but our roots were so deeply embedded, that it wouldn’t allow us to budge. The more I think about it, the more it’s true. I place my hand over my heart and sigh. An endless stream of tears began to flow from my eyes. “IF only” were the words that constantly flowed within my mind.
“IF only...” you could have held me one last time before you let me go.
“If only...” I could have felt your soft lips pressed up against mine.
“If only...” I could have made love to you and let you experience the intense love making we could have shared...
But I never got the chance to do so. How I wish it could have been something, but evidentially it could not be anything. Now all that is left is nothing, but an endless goodbye.
Naikia S Smith
It’s funny how time goes by,
and you drift amongst the past.
Wondering if you could have done something more,
in order to make that relationship last.
But everything happens for a reason,
usually for a lesson to be learned.
You accept the fact,
you can no longer be,
but close to them is something you yearn.
I’m not quite sure how we defined our relationship,
but it was one I kept close to my heart.
No matter what the circumstances were,
my feelings for you will never depart.
But I must admit the latest blow,
Took me by surprise.
You had an angry spirit against me,
some type of hatred or even despise.
Yet despite the way you feel towards me,
I can’t erase how I feel.
I just know without hesitation,
my feelings for you are without doubt and always real.
I just wish I could take back all the things,
I’ve said and also those I’ve done wrong.
From the beginning, I’ve always felt,
with you was where my heart belonged.
Naikia S. Smith